Mistakes

I wish I could ask all these questions I have.
Was this real? What did you feel?
For the first time, I want to know about you. I want to know what you were feeling. I want to hear your thoughts, and just revel in the feel of your voice, of your words. I feel like all those times you said what I was feeling before I spoke the words- like maybe if I think this, FEEL this hard enough, I can get through to that place that we always used to be so connected in, and speak straight to your heart. Do you remember all the times we thought the same thing, like we were inside of each other, speaking with the same voice.
This was more than what people would have seen... And I wonder whether it was real, like maybe you've moved on with your life and never think of me. But it's not like that for me. We had something crazy special, something most people only ever dream about. And I think about it all the time.